Matreshka in Moscow
Right now, I am so happy. When I started on this journey last year I had some unrealistic expectations of myself about what I could achieve and how quickly.
And yet here I am a year, or seven months later sitting in a café in Moscow writing a blog, like I imagined. Well it could be any café in the world really, just as long as I was participating in new experiences and going with the flow, finding energies that are for me. And honestly I see so many things differently now. Attachment to money is having a looser and looser grip. Being stuck in negative patterns of thinking about myself and other people is also fading.
Just now I bought a ring that a mentor advised I get about three years ago in order to help in my journey. Before the realization that I needed that ring I was looking at souvenirs and badgering myself about not spending more money, but I realized that I need to get the perfect matreshka for my sister and that was the driving force.
Then I started looking at jewelry.
I’ve been spotting all these little yellow stones everywhere while in Moscow. And this time I finally took notice. These are from Pribaltika or by the Baltic sea, Kaliningrad the sales lady told me. She was really helpful. When I realized that the stone wasn’t the one my mentor advised me to get (they are both green and knowing little about stones, initially I assumed this one must be it), she pointed me to a good jewelry store nearby. Subsequently I left saying I would come back later on in the day and get the jewelry and the martreshka I just needed to think it over (and maybe get two matreshkas :) ).
I flew over to the Moscow jewelry store and made a pretty quick decision there — normally I am not so good at being decisive.
I got the ring I wanted and went back to my hotel also called Matreshka, by the way.
Then I hurried back to the souvenir store.
The sales lady was so genuinely happy to see me, “My girl has come back,” she exclaimed. It was such a happy exchange and just to think a few years ago I saw sales people as vultures preying on you and willing to say anything to make a sale. I am not saying there aren’t sales people like that, but that many of them are also just happy to help and happy to do their job well. Everyone should want to succeed in whatever career path they are in, right? So if she does her job well that ‘s a reason for both us to be happy.
Making little negative judgements about other people and about yourself really brings down our energies. I realize now I made negative judgements about sales people because of an unhealthy relationship to money not because they aren’t good people.
It’s important to look at things objectively, but also in the kindest way possible. When we connect to the surrounding energy we already know everything, every bad thought and every good thought, and our purity is what pulls people in.
By the way three years ago I thought there is no way I had the money to buy a gold ring with genuine gem stones and looking at it strictly I actually have less money now than I used to then, and yet it wasn’t an issue getting the ring. Actually it was really easy and enjoyable.
Again and again I see my past patterns all adding up to self sabotage. Blocks can be easily overcome by fulfilling our wishes (while not harming others) while taking responsibility for our lives.
By:
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𝓛𝓸𝓿𝓮,
𝓐𝓙☙
